I need to mourn

Thriving Ivory - Angels On The Moon




I need to mourn and hide.
I feel so helpless.
My life is wonderful.
I've got no problems.
I have everything I want.
My parents love me, I've got all the support and in fact, it's more than I'll ever need.
But
I'm empty.
I feel like the worst idiot in this whole fucked up world.
How could I've been so blind?
I need to mourn, conclusively...
I need to stop breathing.
Then tell myself that I shouldn't think about him anymore.
Get over it.
Off with all that crap.
Brain wash me if you have to, but no matter how hard I try, I can't seem to ignore the fact that deep down in my little heart I have crazy jumbled up feelings for him.
Leave me alone.
Just let me be a human with no feelings.
I need to get a life.
I need to wake up.




by 米立